February 2023 It’s been a year since the loss. One year later and I still can’t reliably place myself in a public setting for an extended period of time. I can, however, be functional for planned encounters that last a brief and pre-determined amount of time - for the most part. Which has allowed me to see friends and engage in some aspects of work. So that’s something. But I’m still not happy with how not happy I am at this point.
It's interesting, I would imagine, to reread these older excerpts and how so much has changed in this following year. Still healing is a journey, not a destination. When I lost my life partner (divorce - not death) it has taken nearly five years to truly recuperate to the point of feeling like my real-self again, and regain the grace, peace and confidence that I had prior to the loss. There are some things about myself that have also permanently changed, and I have yet to discover if that is for good or naught. Best of luck as you continue to heal and discover happiness again.
It's interesting, I would imagine, to reread these older excerpts and how so much has changed in this following year. Still healing is a journey, not a destination. When I lost my life partner (divorce - not death) it has taken nearly five years to truly recuperate to the point of feeling like my real-self again, and regain the grace, peace and confidence that I had prior to the loss. There are some things about myself that have also permanently changed, and I have yet to discover if that is for good or naught. Best of luck as you continue to heal and discover happiness again.