Turn it Off....Oh God, Turn it Back On!
July 2022
It turns out that “My Lady Up and Left Me” songs carry enough thematic parallels to losing Kara, that I have a very difficult time listening to them. Which means I have a hard time listening to the radio in general. It’s terrible. Pick any song where someone is headed out the door - they all cut to the quick. In many ways loss is loss and gone is gone regardless of causation.
Additionally, certain songs that pop up on the radio can instantly elicit vivid memories capable of throwing what had been a good day up to that point, completely off its axis. So right now a steady diet of mostly instrumental or foreign language music provides the soundtrack for the day with pain-free aplomb.
Innocuous as my jazz and classical music stations might be, they do open me up to another potentially problematic scenario. That of a wandering mind. Which can be just as bad, if not worse. But for whatever reasons, it seems like more often than not I’d rather deal with my own thoughts than someone else’s lyrics. Which I’m guessing is healthy? Processing and dealing with it all head-on, etc.
So essentially, silence sucks, and music blows. Awesome. Unless perhaps, I choose to do something like employ listening to Latin Jazz as a means of learning Spanish. Actually, that might just be the way out of this. No wait - I already know that “corazon” means heart. Damn it!